Ghost Story

It was a great relief and comfort; one of her most basic decisions being made for her - how to breathe and when. She had, ever since her first pregnancy, been very aware of her difficulties of breathing when it becomes self-conscious - and now she was self-conscious about almost everything almost all the time.. There was a definite danger that she would soon be taking every aspect of herself far too seriously - in a childlike way, believing that decisions she made about whether or not to breathe now, now, now or 'now' were world-changers. She was particularly worried that she might find a way of becoming superstitious about her breathing patterns.. She was capable of it, and she feared these capacities - they seemed to operate for their own delight, these days.

Toby Litt

8:37 p.m. - 2012-08-06