25 morton street

i asked sven if he thinks he had passed this year. he said, he thinks he made it. i asked him what was his best subject. he said love.
mine was happiness and contentment. that was my prayer at the beginning of this year.
we just had moved here, i was swimming in the river and thought, this is heaven, this is what i had always dreamt of and at the same moment i started to worry: why did we only sign the lease for one year? what if we have to leave this place?
and i realised that i lived most of my life worrying. either i was anxious that things would come to pass and when they finally did i worried that they will pass.
floating on my back i decided this had to stop. i prayed that i would learn how to be happy and content in every situation. and i think this is what i learned this year.

even now, feeling change coming without knowing where to go and how to do it, i feel peace. i enjoy where i am, and i am grateful for it and at the same time i am excited for new things to come, knowing god will give me the heart for wherever he wants me to be.

my weakest subject is still patience. that was my last years lesson and i hardly passed. i never understood why you have to learn patience. wouldn�t it be much easier if things simply would happen faster?
but even here i learned not to wait, but to enjoy live in the meantime. that makes it much easier. and there is always something to enjoy.

elke naters

10:43 a.m. - 2009-08-11